Need personal help - not quilting

[debbie510]

We had to take the dog (Elsie) to the hospital late Sun. because she got very sick. The vet said she had a uterus infection and they had to operate. When they operated they also found she was full of cancer that they could not take out. They were some kind of bleeding tumors attached to her kidneys. We could either put her to sleep or sew her up and she would live for a week to 10 days in a lot of pain. So we put her to sleep. My DH had to make the decision because I couldn't. She was only 8 years old.

The problem is I have not stopped crying since then and now it's Friday and I have a really bad headache. I took off work Mon. & Tues. and when I came back to work only 3 people talked to me. Everyone else ignored me because I guess they didn't know what to say.

I'm really sorry this is so long, but I don't know how to get over this. She was like another child to me. She met me at the door after work and slept in her bed next to mine. Now everytime I look at her bed I start crying again. I don't have any of her toys left because I buried them with her.

Has anyone else been through this? My heart hurts and I need to stop crying. My tears are dripping on my autograph squares so I might need to make new ones.

[debbie510]

I just realized I posted this in the wrong place. That's how upset I have been.

[TexasQuilter]

Debbie - my heart is breaking for you. I know the pain of losing a much-loved pet. They are part of the family! I'll pray for your recovery from this sorrow.

Laura

[zfatcat]

Debbie I'm so sorry to hear about Elsie. Having to put your pet down is one of the hardest things to do. You'll get past the sadness, but it just might take a while. When we had to put our goldie down, we couldn't even go out in the backyard for a month with out crying. They are so much a part of our families. Hang in there. It will get better with time. Lori

[lv2create]

Debbie, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Oh yes I've been in your place more times than I care to remember. The only thing I hope will help you is that Elsie's quility of life was not what a dog should have. Your Elsie is so very lucky that she had such a caring owner (mommy) that would never let her suffer. Time will help but you will never ever forget the love for your beloved pet. Each and everytime I loose a pet I ask myself why do I keep putting myself through this. Well I do it because I couldn't see my life without a pet in it. I have to look at it that I gave this pet all the love I had the best care I could and they were better for it, and made my life better because they were a part of it.

May time heal your heart. A little poem for you that always reminds me of my beloved Dixie

I have been blessed with a
companion that moves when I
move, that hears my every
breath, and waits patiently for my
return, who celebrates my joy,
responds to my sadness, and fills
my life with devotion. N.A. Noel

[Leetec]

Our dog, Jill, passed away last night. We will miss her, she was 12 years old.

I'm so sorry for your deep loss, Debbie.

[Evie]

You need time to grieve. Some people don't understand why you would grieve so over a mere pet, but pets are full of love. They are not judgmental, they love without reservations.

I would move her bed to the attic/basement/garage and get it out of site. Don't put pictures away, though, I still enjoy looking at my pets/companions that I've had over the years.

[Evie]

Leetec, sorry about your dog passing away last night. I hope she went peacefully. I know that in the not so distant future, my furry company will pass on. He's somewhere between 11 and 14. He's a rescue dog and no one knew his true age. He has trouble going going up and down stairs and lying down. We have to pick him up to put him in the van. No easy feat since he weights 70 lbs!

[debbie510]

I really appreciate everyone's prayers and concerns. I am going to put her bed away tonight - that is a good idea. I have pictures of her everywhere, even on my refridgerator.

I am going to try to go shopping tomorrow for my Jelly Roll Swap fabric. And I need to continue to work on my autograph blocks, even though I cried on some of them. Maybe that will help. Just hope I don't break down in the store. I took my son out to lunch yesterday and started crying in the restaurant. My sisters keep calling to check on me and I start crying on the phone. My brothers don't understand. I feel like I will never get over this.

Leetec - I am so sorry about your dog Jill. I know you are going to miss her. I hope you are doing ok.

[Oasis]

My golden retreiver, Mariya, has been gone for 4 years now and I still cry sometimes when something reminds me of her. I can't watch any of thos movies with retreivers in it. She was 14 and if an animal can be a human's soul mate, then she was mine. I should have let her go sooner than I did, her quality of life suffered because I needed her so much. You did the right thing, your Elsie need you to take away her pain. We said we would not have another pet but. . . .a little 10 pound bundle of "spare parts" was in our garage one day with a chain around her neck that had to weigh more than she did. Someone had her tied up and she must have bit through the leather handle loop and ran away. We did all the lost and found stuff and notified the Humane Society but no one ever asked about her so we fell in love with her and have had her for 2 years now. We named her Sophie (picture in the photo section). She is a chihuahua/Doxin mix according to the Vet. She was starving and ducked away every time we went to pet her so the Vet said she was probably mistreated and is afraid.

I not saying to get another little pet now, it is too soon, but you will get better, it is still too fresh. When the right time comes you will know.

I have pictures also, one is always on my computer desk and another on my nightstand. Again, you will get better with time.